Wednesday, January 18, 2012

i was driving the other day, listening to tchaikovsky's violin concerto (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ATK_pj2iMqg)
and as soon as the violin solo started playing
i had a very strange reaction
i felt very overwhelmed
like i knew how powerful this sound was
and i couldn't do anything about it
(it is going to go on; it is its own being)
this feeling manifested itself as follows:
my fingers needed to be tight, as if trying to create a void
but the wheel was on the way
it was as if i was trying to get rid of this overwhelming feeling
so my arms tightened, my grip tightened around the wheel
and i was pushing my body with my arms away from the wheel
and i closed my eyes
until i could breathe again
(once the violin could breathe as well)
and i kept driving
but my fingers were dancing on my leg, on the wheel, on my face
and when i got to the place i was going
and the music stopped
i sat back and let my body melt with the silence for a while

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Annabel Lee- lyrics to the song cycle and explanation

Dear Josh,
If you're reading this.... thanks!!!!

Annabel Lee (this is Edgar Allan Poe's poem lyrics put to the piano piece, Un Sospiro, by Franz Liszt. I thought Un Sospiro sounded like the "sounding sea".)

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea;
But we loved with a love that was more than love-
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me-
Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we-
Of many far wiser than we-
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea.

Another New World (you probably recognize this)
The leading lights of the age all wondered amongst
themselves what I would do next
After all that I'd found in my travels around
the world was there anything else left?
"Gentlemen", I said, "I've studied the maps"
"And if what I'm thinking is right"
"There's another new world at the top of the world"
"For whoever can break through the ice"

I looked round the room in that way I once had
and I saw that they wanted belief
So I said "All I've got are my guts and my God"
then I paused,"and the Annabelle Lee"
Oh the Annabelle Lee, I saw their eyes shine
the most beautiful ship in the sea
My Nina, My Pinta, My Santa Maria
My beautiful Annabelle Lee

That spring we set sail as the crowds waved from shore
and on board the crew waved their hats
But I never had family just the Annabelle Lee
so I didn't have cause to look back
I just set the course north and I studied the charts
and toward dark I drifted toward sleep
and I dreamed of the fine deep harbor I'd find
past the ice for my Annabelle Lee

After that it got colder the world got quiet
it was never quite day or quite night
And the sea turned the color of sky turned the color
of sea turned the color of ice
'Til at last all around us was fastness
one vast glassy desert of arsenic white
And the waves that once lifted us
sifted instead into drifts against Annabelle's sides

The crew gathered closer at first for the comfort
but each morning would bring a new set
of the tracks in the snow leading over the edge
of the world 'til I was the only one left
After that it gets cloudy but it feels like I lay there
for days maybe for months
But Annabelle held me the two of us happy
just to think back on all we had done

We talked of the other worlds we'd discover
as she gave up her body to me
And as I chopped up her mainsail for timber
I told her of all that we still had to see
As the frost turned her moorings to nine-tail
and the wind lashed her sides in the cold
I burned her to keep me alive every night
in the loving embrace of her hold

I won't call it rescue what brought me here back to
the old world to drink and decline
And to pretend that the search for another new world
was well-worth the burning of mine
But sometimes at night in my dreams comes the singing
of some unknown tropical bird
And I smile in my sleep thinking Annabelle Lee
has finally made it to another new world

Be Here Now by Mason Jennings


Be here now
No other place to be
Or just sit there dreaming
Of how life would be
If we were somewhere better
Somewhere far
Away from all our worries
Well here we are
You, are the love, of my life
Be here now
No other place to be
All the doubts that linger
Just set them free
And let good things happen
And let the future come
Into each moment
Like a rising sun
You, are the love, of my life
You, are the love, of my life
Yea you know you are
Sun comes up and we start again (x 6)
And it's all new today
All we have to say
Is be here now
Be here now
No other place to be
This whole world keeps changing
Come change with me
Everything that's happened
All that's yet to come
Is here inside this moment
Its the only one
You, are the love, of my life
You, are the love, of my life
Yeah you know you are
Sun comes up and we start again (x 6)
Its all new today
All we have to say
Is be here now

My Response to all of these lyrics- using your music from Another New World and keeping some of the lyrics too! So it is kind of an extension of your song =0)

The leading lights of the age all wondered amongst
Themselves what I would do next
After all that I'd found in my travels around
The World was there anything left?
Gentlemen I said, I've studied the maps
And if what I'm thinking is right
In any part of this great big circular world
We can always break through the ice

I looked round the room in that way I once had
And I saw that they wanted belief
So I said "All I've got is one simple idea, in order to bring us relief"
Well I looked for a sparkle or shine in their eye
To help me begin to speak
But I didn't find it, so I closed my eyes and remembered the Annabelle Lee

Here I sit with you all right here at my side
In this Old World of drink and decline
Pretending the search for Another New World
Is well worth the burning of mine
But this Old World we're in, wouldn't look quite so dim
If we took a good look around
And smiled for the light flooding down on us bright
That we cover with troubles we've found

The crew gathered closer at first in confusion
But each passing moment would bring
A new recollection of moments right here
In this Old World that still made them sing
Why should we ignore the crowd waving from shore
They don't have to be waving good bye
For its sheer good fortune to miss those you love
Every day that you're sharing alive
The ice started melting

Oh Annabel Lee may have died by the sea
But at such cost doesn't it seem
We'd all better take this Old World we know
And break through the ice and just be

Oh Annabel Lee may have died by the sea
But at such cost doesn't it seem
We'd all better take this Old World we know
And break through the ice and just be


Friday, December 30, 2011

www.smallfarm.org

05 - This is an 80-acre organic for-profit farm located in a beautiful area of Long Island’s East End (called the North Fork). We are about 2 hours from NYC in a great area of beaches, ponds, forests, farms, and great summer weather. We cultivate approximately 30 acres of mixed vegetables and 3 acres of cut flowers, focusing on great-tasting heirloom varieties of tomatoes, cucumbers, beans, potatoes, etc. We also have a flock of 1000 laying hens, and a few cows, sheep, and goats for milk, meat, and fun. We sell produce to approximately 700 CSA members at ten locations in NYC and on Long Island, to local residents from a busy farm stand on the farm, and at Greenmarket in Brooklyn and farmers markets on Long Island.

If you are interested in learning how to develop and run your own diverse sustainable farm to sustain you and your family someday financially as well as spiritually, you will find working with us very interesting. If you are just looking to learn how to grow your own food and relax in the country for a summer, you may not find it as enjoyable. We hustle.

Experience preferred but not necessarily required. We are looking for apprentices who are self-directed and enjoy “attacking” the challenges that arise throughout the farm season, and who are interested in helping us improve the way we do things on the farm by sharing with us lessons from their experience on other farms and by taking responsibility for the parts of our operation that interest them. Drivers license and the ability to drive a truck, particularly in New York City, is highly desired. Sense of humor, independence, initiative, a good attitude, and a large dose of common sense are also desired. Mechanical experience, driving or fixing tractors and machinery is also highly desired.

Approximately 55 hrs per week will be expected (i.e. 8 am – 5 pm 6 days per week), with one full day off, and some schedule flexibility upon advance request.

Education is mainly hands-on, learning-by-doing. We have a weekly meeting where the farmers answer questions in-depth, and many lunches turn into spur-of-the-moment lessons on everything from marketing plans to cultivating implements. We lend books from our sustainable agriculture collection and will make limited reading and writing assignments. We facilitate monthly exchanges with other area farms, including vineyards, tree farms, etc. and other organic farm apprentices, as well as social events with neighbors and friends. Enjoy our area's natural attractions on days off including kayaking, canoeing, hiking, and swimming. Special projects can include opportunities to make additional income through entrepreneurship, such as growing and marketing your own crops on unused farmland, pastured poultry, and production of pickles, cookies, jams, and farm arts and crafts for sale at farm stand. Other projects to improve the sustainability of our farm are welcomed including establishing educational gardens, teaching on-farm classes, and experimentation with alternative fuels (straight vegetable oil, bio diesel), etc.

PERIOD OF INTERNSHIP: Farm Manager: April 1 - end of Nov. Other positions: begin between April 1 and June 1 – end Nov. Novice Farmer: 1 or 2 month period during growing season. Please make the dates you are available clear in your letter of interest. Possibility to extend position through the winter for 1-2 exceptional individuals, based on performance during the regular season.

We will provide housing at a farmhouse on the farm property which is fully furnished and includes bathroom and kitchen. Within walking distance of beach, 5 mins drive from town (also bikeable).

Vegetables, eggs, and other farm produce are provided free of charge. Apprentices take turns cooking lunch for the group, and Garden of Eve provides some free staples for these meals (beans, rice, pasta, etc.). Condiments, dairy, snacks, and many other foods are available for purchase at our farm store at wholesale prices.

MATERIALS TO BE SUBMITTED: All interested applicants should submit a resume, three references (of which two should be former employers), and a letter of interest explaining previous experience and skills, and reasons for interest in this position via email.

FARM APPRENTICE

- Will participate in all aspects of vegetable farming including seeding, transplanting, weeding, and harvesting vegetables;

- Specific areas of responsibility for different apprentices will include: Greenhouse Management; Livestock Management; Flower Farm Management, and Market Management of different markets.

- If qualified, driving and accompanying box truck into NYC for CSA deliveries, as well as driving to, setting up, and managing farmers market stand.

- Working at the farmstand and at farmers markets;

- Help pack and load truck;

- Presentation and marketing of vegetables;

- Basic livestock care of goats, sheep and chickens at the farmstand;

- Participating in all other crop-related tasks

Qualities desired:

- Ability to lift 40 pounds

- Serious Interest in the biological and entrepreneurial aspects of farming

- basic Spanish language skills helpful but not required

STIPEND: $1000/month plus housing on-site, & income from entrepreneurial farm project including growing your own crops to sell at the market or farmstand, or other activities such as preserving, baking, drying herbs, etc.

FARM MANAGER

Duties include:

- Communicating daily with Chris regarding tasks for the day;

- Holding brief daily meeting with other apprentices to outline daily/weekly schedule;

- Directing daily activities including planting, cultivating, harvesting, processing;

- Driving tractor for most transplanting in the spring, and helping do tractor-mounted cultivating through the summer and fall;

- Maintaining all harvest data and records;

- Managing and working with farm crew and other apprentices;

- Helping harvesting, washing, packing, and loading produce with farm crew;

- Maintaining crew productivity data and time sheets.

- Monitoring packing room and inventory of harvesting supplies;

- Organizing and cleaning packing room, coolers and storage facilities;

- Analyzing and refining harvesting and packing room methods and efficiencies;

- Loading truck for delivery;

- Driving box truck into NYC for CSA deliveries (if qualified and necessary).

QUALITIES DESIRED

- Tractor and cultivating experience highly desired

- Minimum one season's farm experience

- Some managerial experience and aptitude required

- Disciplined, Organized, Responsible, Independent and Positive.

- Basic Spanish language skills, or willingness to learn

- A valid driver's license and ability to lift 40 pounds is required.

- This is an excellent position for someone planning to start their own farm in the next year or two, as the Farm Manager carries significant responsibility and decisionmaking independence.

STIPEND: $25K approximately depending upon experience, with a 3 year requested committment.

 CHILDREN'S PROGRAM INSTRUCTOR and part-time childcare provider

If you like to spend time with kids and have a background instructing at a camp, environmental education, or other outdoor education experience, this could be a good opportunity for you.

The Children's Program Instructor will plan, promote, implement and teach classes at our farm markets on topics including organic gardening, cooking, preserving the harvest, etc. Our farmstand products and programming are oriented towards families with children and each year we look for someone with experience and interest in creating, scheduling, and teaching activities with preschool aged kids (i.e. 2-7) and their families (i.e. Bug walks, berry picking, seed planting, cooking projects, etc.) about 2-3 days/week. You may also plan, implement, recruit staff, promote and teach a small farm day camp on the farm during the summer months.

We are looking for someone who is highly self-motivated and independent, with prior experience as an instructor. The successful candidate will also have an entrepreneurial bent, with experience in creating and marketing programs successfully.

In addition, the person hired will care for Eve and Chris's 3 and 5 year old kids 2-3 days a week on the farm. Activities will include farm walks, going to the library or the beach, visiting friends, etc. Drivers liscence required.

Duties include:

20% : farm work with the other apprentices

40% : childcare for two farm kids (ages 3 and 5) on the farm i.e. walking around farm, in the house, etc);

40% : independently develop and teach weekly events for kids and families including playgroup, farm tours, cooking demonstrations, etc.

Qualities desired:

- Enjoyment of small children and previous work experience i.e. babysitting, camp counselor, educator

-Experience in creating and marketing programs successfully

- Ability/interest in independently developing educational activities for kids to offer on the farm

-Self-motivated and independent, with an entrepreneurial bent

STIPEND: $1000-$1500/month plus housing on-site

NOVICE FARMER

We are willing to fill one position each month with people who have a positive attitude and interest in exploring farming as a vocation, but who have had little prior experience. The period of the “Novice” position will be 1-2 months (i.e. you can select April-May, Sept-Oct, etc.). Email us with your interest and the months you are interested in.

Qualities desired: Ability to do physical manual work of farming, and interest in learning about farming & food

STIPEND: $600/month plus housing on-site, vegetables, & income from entrepreneurial activities.



06 - Enterprises: Now operating in our 25th year, we are a certified organic produce farm located in Orange County, NY. We grow 12 acres of vegetables and herbs on an old dairy farm that is 88 acres in size. The balance of the land is either fallow, wooded or used for pasturing cows. We have a small flock of chickens. In 2007, a conservation easement was placed on our farm.

Work to be done: Interns are involved in greenhouse work, field planting, growing, tending, harvesting and marketing of more than 100 different vegetables and herbs. Our produce is sold at the Union Square Greenmarket in Manhattan from late May to December.

We are seeking interns to fill eight positions. We have a long history of working with interns. More than 140 people have worked on our farm over the past 22 years, most staying for a full season, some for two or three seasons. We prefer people with outdoor and physical work experience who can stay for six to eight months (April/May to Nov./Dec.) and who have a strong interest in learning about and practicing sustainable agriculture. Many of those who live and work on the farm stay in touch long after the season is over and return to visit. Learning is mostly hands-on and interns are expected to take responsibility for many tasks and individual projects (greenhouse management, irrigation, record keeping, etc.).

We offer good housing with private rooms, bathrooms and kitchen facilities, plus a $300 per week stipend, increasing to $350 per week after eight weeks, and late season bonuses. Those returning for a second year receive a larger stipend. Meals are not provided but interns can cook and eat anything we grow. A long-term, year-round, co-management position is also available, with salary and benefits increasing substantially over time. There is plenty of discussion of organic methods and philosophy. Reading material is available for those who are interested.

The farm is an appealing place, set well back off the road and buffered by woods. It has varied terrain and topography. It is rich in animal and bird life. It has a creek and three ponds, one of which is good for swimming. We are a short distance from the Appalachian Trail and the Delaware River, and about two hours from New York City. To learn more about this farm and read what ten former interns had to say about their experiences here, check out the book, It’s a Long Road to a Tomato, by Keith Stewart.

New York City A.R.E. Center
241 W. 30th Street, 2nd floor

The Lion King
200 West 45th Street

New Cats Cafe
2027 Emmons Ave Brooklyn
Monday night karaoke


  • Brooklyn Botanical Garden
    Free admission on Tuesdays (Admission is free every weekday from mid-November through February)
    1000 Washington Avenue, Brooklyn, NY
    Phone: 718-623-7200
  • Brooklyn Botanical Garden
    Free admission from 10 a.m. - 12 p.m. on Saturdays
    1000 Washington Avenue, Brooklyn, NY
    Phone: 718-623-7200

Monday, November 14, 2011

PAPAS PAPAS PAPAS

1.) stream of consciousness
Flying saucers donuts
south congress street wish i could just walk there more
homophobes suuuuuure?
armadillos oh nice shell
Chris Lukas aiii cristobal (hand thing)
oatmeal crunchy
Mexico sad
New York a phase
Honey Ohs o ho ho ho hoho ho hohoho
The Outdoor School silence

How is your brain different from August?
before the outdoor school i think i was very much about collecting knowledge somehow, like having a box inside my head about all the stuff i could know about/stuff i couldn't understand/i thought had no explanation... i still thought that i could have an explanation in my head. but being here i realized that its better to just feel it out instead of trying to understand it, cuz when you try to understand it, its a different idea in and of itself, and when you're feeling it out, you're actually seeing it as it is. i dont know what it means, but, it.

Do you think you can use this newfound mentality to learn piano?
I think so, because when i was looking at the pieces today, at the music sheets, i was not really trying to understand them, because my brain was being a little lazy, but i was still able to (belch) read something by just looking at it, and it was like an overall reading and something i could still understand in a different way then if i had spent hours figuring out the notes.

What is your greatest weakness right now?
Umm... being lazy.

What is your greatest strength right now?
Being open to just doing whatever whenever.

How do you think that you have changed my mind in the time we've known each other?
Well, I think you've been able to watch me grow more than I've been able to watch myself grow, so I think maybe my tendency to abstract things and to put them in a different place in the world while still being able to feel out stuff and not box it up all the time... that may have showed you that you can have both worlds kind of.... im trying to be able to intertwine them... annnndddd... im actually not sure of anything i just said.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

a look into the mind of Papita

Don't give too much thought to these questions; just let words fall out of your mouth. This is a first instinct, intuitive type of thing going on here. If you don't like a question then just skip it.

1.) What do you think about the concept of "healing"? When someone is healing, what is actually happening?
a lot of those conflicts that happen in somebody's life pertain to the self, and constant interactions with everything around them. interactions with the external world are continuous; there's never a separation of the self from the environment. divisions are only there to make things easier to explain. when the interactions are not smooth or harmonious or soothing. when somebody is sick or distraught, it's because the interactions are like shocks. (arms flailing in peripheral vision)
When somebody's healing, those shocks smooth out. Your body is receiving everything better.
when not in the mindset of it, i get really separated from my environment. in order to have a good session with the kids, you have to be there in their own little bubble. i get their attention by being in their place. sometimes when not in the mood of it i go in my own little world and then there is separation, but that's all in your head. divisions are definitely created by yourself.
In yoga you are moving your body through space. muscles relax and contract at the same time. a synergy in the physical world that lets you see beyond the separation of things.


2.) Describe the goodness of Tecate to someone who has never had it before.
It's kind of bold, but it's.... so smooth. Its just...flavor with character.


4.) Have you thought more about what your ex-boyfriend said about you thinking you'll miss him, but not really? Is that even possible? If you think you miss him is that the same thing as missing him?

5.) Give a short autobiography of your life and invent the future if you like.

6.) If you were elected President of a community about the size of TOS, only without the actual job part of TOS, and you had to come up with a constitution, what would be in the constitution?

7.) Do you believe that our souls exist over more than one lifetime? Reincarnation?
I don't think that life is that linear or that easily put into segments. It's easy for us to imagine "oh yeah in the past life I was this being" but I'm sure it's way more complex than that. To me it's more absolute, existing versus not existing. When you're not existing I'm not sure what the fuck is going on, but I know something is.

8.) Do you ever believe that things are so important and so unimportant at the exact same time?
It happens a lot with people. Humanity is one of the things that I am truly in love with, but at the same time I have this.... I feel like humanity focuses on the wrong things a lot of the time. I have this love for every human being, but then sometimes I can't respect their decisions or their actions.

9.) What's something that you want to figure out that you haven't figured out yet.
I sometimes have trouble with self control. In my head I'm very aware of stuff but actually implementing it is a different story sometimes. When I start living in my head a lot, living through memories and photographs, I stop paying as much attention to the now and the real world that is actually happening, and I ignore cues from the now that help me out in interactions. I've been living through photographs and books a lot lately.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

fridalarizza
girl is all major chords